I’m not dead yet.

I’ve just been working an obscene amount of time at the office lately.  No, I’m not doing it because I’m a workaholic, or because I’m a control freak who can’t bear to give work up, or anything like that.  In fact, I’ve had to do semantic cartwheels to convince my boss and a few other folks that, despite their concern, I’m not doing this for altruistic or masochistic reasons at all.  It has earned me a my second promotion in less than a year, two bonuses, and helped me negotiate a mid-year raise, plus I’m banking this time so I can take a much-needed vacation in August and not use any of my personal vacation time to do so.  Altruism be damned.  I have goals, and this effort, while starting to wear on me a bit eating away my nights and weekends, is getting me there faster than I would otherwise have been able to accomplish.  Plus, it’s been the excuse by which I’ve been able to avoid or offload more menial, project drudgery I’d rather not be doing, all with the blessings of management.

I don’t know why I’m even mentioning it here, but I guess I just needed to vent my frustrations at the constant time-wasting “we’re worried you’ll burn out” discussions.  I just feel like saying, look, I’ll cry uncle when I need to cry uncle, and not a moment sooner.  If you’re so worried I’ll burn out, then hire someone for me that I don’t have to waste precious time training.  Or give me another bonus.  But the project for which I’m the technical manager has a summer schedule that could very possibly qualify as insane, and it’s either put in the effort now and collapse in August, or squeal now and tell the client we can’t make their deadlines.  And I’m sure no one wants that.  So shut up about it already.  And stop trying to hire or contract people I’ll have to train.  It’s nice to see you’re so concerned, but that can’t even remotely qualify as “help”.

Right.  Now that I’ve vented my spleen on that subject, I lost track of the real subject I intended to write about.  Don’t worry, it’ll come back to me… I feel happy!  I feel happy!

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